beach and home

I was thinking about what to write about this week since nothing’s really “happened” except for the usual adult/parent things. I HAVE been super stressed out about something in particular, but it’s nothing bad. I’ll talk about it once the “happy ending” comes because I know it will 😉

So about my social life. I pretty much have none at this point in my life. It sounds depressing writing and reading that lol, but it’s really not. It’s pretty much “the norm” as a parent, especially with more than one kid. It doesn’t help that I’ve never really had a close circle of friends like some people do. Instead, I’ve always had a huge cicle of friends to the point where people would tell me “geez you know everyone!”. I was a great connector and would always bring friends of mine who didn’t know each other together.

I have a different social life now. Instead of looking forward to Friday nights so I could get ready, pregame, and get into whatever club of the week for free before 11pm or 12am, I now look forward to Friday nights so I can RELAX after what always seems to be a long effing week. The past 6 Friday nights have become become my unofficial “write my blog post of the week” time, and it’s actually been nice. Definitely not what I would’ve thought of as my ideal Friday night if you had asked me 10 years ago lol, but still nice nonetheless 🙂

I try imagining what my life would be like right now if I wasn’t married with kids. Would I be on another vacation? Would I be getting ready to hit a bar or lounge instead of a club? I have no idea, but as I sit here in our messy place I can’t help but feel a sense of peace amidst the chaos that I’m exactly where I need to be right now. Don’t get me wrong – sometimes I’d love to not have a care in the world and be able to pick up and go and I DO miss that, BUT I also lived it up enough to not have any regrets, so I can enjoy this stage of my life.

Ok so enough about why I don’t have a social life lol. My point in writing about this was recognizing that I don’t have much of one and need to make the effort to do SOMETHING at least once/month, especially since it’s part of my life vision. Earlier this week I went to the beach for a mental health day with hubby and some friends. I pumped on the way there and back so I could have the best of both worlds as a breastfeeding mom and someone who wants/needs some “me time”. Tonight is wine night with my sisters and cousins. All week I thought about how I hate going out on Friday nights and how I didn’t want to go because all I want to do is stay home and relax, but I WILL be relaxing there, so why not go and spend some QT with my family and continue having a social life that I said I need? So F it – off I go. After I finish nursing Adrian of course 😉